Pam Ashlyn Cleaire

Sometimes When i c ppl close to me smoke

I really feel v heartache.

Seeing them smoke their life away

I always wonder if i smoke will that bring lesser pain,

will that lessen that pain impact?

After struggling so much

I really dont know wad i did was right or wrong

Past few weeks I was too busy to think of wad i done

till recently those pain memories really haunt me all the way.

I was thinking WHAT HAVE I done?

I ve hurt someone deeply til I feel the same pain much later..

Very deep which I don think this wound can heal as easy as said.

whatever I do I will never b able to repay wad ive done
If you stop for this person

This same person can cause u to start all over again.

I already knew this would happen

Yupps I m really disappointed but it s u already
You may say its nt ur fault

But You cant deny that I m partly involved
Flashes jux kept appearing in my mind today

with no particular reason

I knew I will regret a lot of things.

Yes Life gotta go on.

The earth is spinning

But I m left there on my own.

Swiss club, Bluggy,Oktoberfest n every memories i jux kp thinkiing

The time when someone I said i m gonna lent smoke.

which made me so mad

really so deep engrave in my mind.

N where alot of chocolates for us to choose.

I know is all in the past.

To meet or not, will it matters? I really dont know.
I m losing my senses so badly

How I hope to get myself to disappear once and for all.

Sorry Hope this wont affect you

but I jux trying to control my stress as to express

this entry is not to get ur pity.

Jux something random to express myself.