Sometimes When i c ppl close to me smoke
I really feel v heartache.
Seeing them smoke their life away
I always wonder if i smoke will that bring lesser pain,
will that lessen that pain impact?
After struggling so much
I really dont know wad i did was right or wrong
Past few weeks I was too busy to think of wad i done
till recently those pain memories really haunt me all the way.
I was thinking WHAT HAVE I done?
I ve hurt someone deeply til I feel the same pain much later..
Very deep which I don think this wound can heal as easy as said.
whatever I do I will never b able to repay wad ive done
If you stop for this person
This same person can cause u to start all over again.
I already knew this would happen
Yupps I m really disappointed but it s u already
You may say its nt ur fault
But You cant deny that I m partly involved
Flashes jux kept appearing in my mind today
with no particular reason
I knew I will regret a lot of things.
Yes Life gotta go on.
The earth is spinning
But I m left there on my own.
Swiss club, Bluggy,Oktoberfest n every memories i jux kp thinkiing
The time when someone I said i m gonna lent smoke.
which made me so mad
really so deep engrave in my mind.
N where alot of chocolates for us to choose.
I know is all in the past.
To meet or not, will it matters? I really dont know.
I m losing my senses so badly
How I hope to get myself to disappear once and for all.
Sorry Hope this wont affect you
but I jux trying to control my stress as to express
this entry is not to get ur pity.
Jux something random to express myself.
C clearly they wan me off the com! call me enjoy my weekend!
